Loosing What I Never Had
(1.16 - Shuttlepod One)

I feel the urge to reach out and brush a stray strand of your normally so immaculately groomed hair out of your forehead. Trip doesn't look better but somehow he doesn't provoke these feelings in me.

And again I have to admit to myself that you own a special place - not only in my crew but especially in my heart.

You look pale and somehow fragile, so completely different from the usual way you appear to me, to all of us. Only now do I realize how close I was to loosing you even though you never were mine.

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